Tonight was rough

It's hard telling a young boy he is going to have surgery on his foot. He kept saying it doesn't hurt and it was fine. He got so scared he got sick. This poor sweet boy.

We talked, we loved, we role played with dolls we hugged, we cried and we all held him, and we explained to him why this was needed.

It broke our heart when he said no I'll be good. I'll walk better please. I will daddy, Papa please.

It was a very hard night.

Tt told him he'd wear a cast just like his so they would match.

We got him calmed down and relaxed and he's asleep in Joel's arms right now. Joel is afraid to move because he doesn't want to wake him up and have to start all over.

We have to be there at 10 am tomorrow. I wish it was earlier.

This poor sweet boy of ours. He just doesn't understand why. But we got him and we'll get him though it. I hope it's ok to ask for a few prayers for our big man tomorrow.

This sweet boy of ours

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Boeing · 36-40

You carry such a heart in your writings it makes me want to cry when I read them sometimes

Cigarguy · 41-45, C

@Boeing thank you for saying that.

Boeing · 36-40

@Cigarguy I'm sorry if I become overwhelming, I just feel that

Cigarguy · 41-45, C

@Boeing no not at all. You're kind words mean a lot to me

Boeing · 36-40

@Cigarguy okay then I will say more - with a slight fear that you will avoid me sooner or later - but nevermind it = I feel that just by getting in contact with you and your energy, healing is activated within me. And I find that it is your great capacity to receive another and to hold another unconditionally .
This is what I find so moving in you, a well of unconditional love, available to those around you.

And it is mabe ultimately what you activate in me, a reflection, a mirror, to see how I am that for the world and for those near me too, and that I hold this capacity, but I have no daily confirmation, through a family or community, to showcase it, because I still am afraid and haven't found complete security to love fully.

Cigarguy · 41-45, C

@Boeing you are so sweet thank you so much. It took me years to get here and I have a long way to go but one day at a time. I've learned I have to fight for myself as much as everyone else does and I have alot to fight for right now

Boeing · 36-40

@Cigarguy I see and can understand that...
My prayers for the procedure of the young boy to go well and for his transitioning and healing to happen in the gentlest, smoothest way possible 🙏

Cigarguy · 41-45, C

@Boeing he is doing well and resting. We are watching him all night just to be sure he's ok and not in any pain