What the heck??? I can't even think about my own characters???? Why??? :/

I just imagine one of the crazy maniac villain in my head and I start having panic attack again. I start sweating again and I had to take deep breaths.


I mean it's one of my characters and try to do a voice over and bam. My chest starts reacting again. Yea I need to visit a doctor. I can't live like this.