I feel a horrible dread when I think about where Addie's body went

I don't like that I had to let her body go

Growing up, we always had to dig a hole and bury them.

Which was HARD. But at least you get to be there through the whole process. And do it as gently as you can, and with care, and giving parting gifts

This, just, having to let her body go somewhere unknown. It feels so bad