i think i have ocd

i met the friendliest cat on my walk today and i couldn't resist giving it a couple pets before i kept going. at first i thought it was stalking my dog which was funny af but eventually i realized it was inching closer for attention 😭 it stretched its little kitty paw at me and was so mf cute, like how could i say no to that

anyway i'm convinced it gave me rabies lol. i know rationally it didn't. it didn't bite or scratch, just rubbed its face/lips on my hand the way cats do while it purred. i got home and washed hands five times in super hot water and washed my face once and cloroxed my glasses. it had a chip in its ear so if it was fixed recently maybe it was vaccinated? and the house it came from had a food bowl so i bet the girl i saw go inside feeds and interacts with it often. it's not a rabid animal 😩

but the intrusive thoughts are like yeah it is. it's friendly bc it's rabid and it got spit on your hand and you touched your eye when you fixed your glasses

i worry about rabies so much it's ridiculous. but usually my intrusive thoughts are more like... i have to check to make sure the doors are closed when i leave the house and the animals are seperated. and i get up to check over and over and over again and end up late getting someone from the airport 😬 i take pictures of the closed doors but then i'm worried after i take the picture i opened the doors.

luckily that hasn't been so bad since i started prozac for depression, but it also happens to treat ocd

short af video but here's kitty <3

(tell me theyre not rabid)