I Am Not Going To Apologize For Who I Am
Weakness... I'm not a big fan of weak people. Back when I was around 15-16, I had a boyfriend who complained about every little headache and bit of pain. I know that he was just trying to gain sympathy from me, but it wasn't working. To me, it was attention that he needed and I just didn't have it in me to "amuse" him.
Why is that I have surrounded myself with these kinds of people? I've noticed a pattern with all of the guys that I've involved myself with. All are needy and clingy. And sadly, they have trouble competing with me. I'm not saying that relationships are competitive. What I meant was I am a VERY strong woman. I speak my mind and I hold on to my instincts and my opinions. I don't mind someone challenging those things about me especially if they can truly back it up. But I don't know.
Right now, the person I am the most upset with is my sister. I've lived with her for almost 5 years now and I think I've just about had it. She is so irresponsible and there's an excuse for everything with her. I haven't talked to her for about 2 months now. I'm just so frustrated. We originally planned on living together because she needed a place to stay when she broke up with her girlfriend. I've always been there for her. I took her in and she's been using me since. We didn't grow up together. I found out about her when I was 16. She's a half sister. But we got to know each other and got really close really fast.
There were things I didn't like about her when she came to live with me and my parents when I was 16. Grandpa always complained that she took too long in the bathroom and we all agreed that she used too much water. She ran up phone bills when she met people online. Daddy paid for all of the bills. She did the same thing that my ex did when I was 15, which was complain about every little tiny pain so that people would have sympathy over her.
When we starting living together, the main concern that my husband and I had with her is money. She's always been careless and irresponsible with money. He and I ran into a lot of debt, but we were able to consolidate it all. With her, she just doesn't care. So that was our initial concern. We told each other that if she screwed us over, we'd throw her out. The second thing, she had a dog, a little puppy. I ended up falling in love with dog so I didn't mind taking care of her at all. But my sister, who didn't contribute paying for rent and utilities on time, hardly went to work, and rarely took care of her dog, continued to abuse me taking her in in the first place.
Now she has this annoying little new girlfriend who is like 15 years younger and is too in love with her to discipline some responsibility into her. Geez.
I'm so annoyed and frustrated. I can't wait to be more financially stable and kick both of their asses out the door. I don't care what she's going through right now. She's been using me for years and she doesn't have any remorse. I'm your FRIGGING FAMILY, for goodness sakes!!!
The other day, we had a family get together and we had a little secret Santa gift exchange. They (sister and girlfriend) both ended up having my two nieces as their secret Santa. One niece is 9 and the other is 14. Both of them didn't show up and neither one of them picked up the phone when we called them. Both nieces had no Christmas presents. So they claimed their (sister and girlfriend) presents instead. Just the look of sadness in both of their faces. It was heart breaking.
I don't care what their excuses are. I am so sick and tired of there always being a reason that something doesn't pull through like its supposed to for her. Medical issues, money issues, car issues, lazy issues, whatever issues. There is ALWAYS some reason. I'm sick of it. She's irresponsible, inconsiderate, and weak. I don't want to be around weak people anymore...
Why is that I have surrounded myself with these kinds of people? I've noticed a pattern with all of the guys that I've involved myself with. All are needy and clingy. And sadly, they have trouble competing with me. I'm not saying that relationships are competitive. What I meant was I am a VERY strong woman. I speak my mind and I hold on to my instincts and my opinions. I don't mind someone challenging those things about me especially if they can truly back it up. But I don't know.
Right now, the person I am the most upset with is my sister. I've lived with her for almost 5 years now and I think I've just about had it. She is so irresponsible and there's an excuse for everything with her. I haven't talked to her for about 2 months now. I'm just so frustrated. We originally planned on living together because she needed a place to stay when she broke up with her girlfriend. I've always been there for her. I took her in and she's been using me since. We didn't grow up together. I found out about her when I was 16. She's a half sister. But we got to know each other and got really close really fast.
There were things I didn't like about her when she came to live with me and my parents when I was 16. Grandpa always complained that she took too long in the bathroom and we all agreed that she used too much water. She ran up phone bills when she met people online. Daddy paid for all of the bills. She did the same thing that my ex did when I was 15, which was complain about every little tiny pain so that people would have sympathy over her.
When we starting living together, the main concern that my husband and I had with her is money. She's always been careless and irresponsible with money. He and I ran into a lot of debt, but we were able to consolidate it all. With her, she just doesn't care. So that was our initial concern. We told each other that if she screwed us over, we'd throw her out. The second thing, she had a dog, a little puppy. I ended up falling in love with dog so I didn't mind taking care of her at all. But my sister, who didn't contribute paying for rent and utilities on time, hardly went to work, and rarely took care of her dog, continued to abuse me taking her in in the first place.
Now she has this annoying little new girlfriend who is like 15 years younger and is too in love with her to discipline some responsibility into her. Geez.
I'm so annoyed and frustrated. I can't wait to be more financially stable and kick both of their asses out the door. I don't care what she's going through right now. She's been using me for years and she doesn't have any remorse. I'm your FRIGGING FAMILY, for goodness sakes!!!
The other day, we had a family get together and we had a little secret Santa gift exchange. They (sister and girlfriend) both ended up having my two nieces as their secret Santa. One niece is 9 and the other is 14. Both of them didn't show up and neither one of them picked up the phone when we called them. Both nieces had no Christmas presents. So they claimed their (sister and girlfriend) presents instead. Just the look of sadness in both of their faces. It was heart breaking.
I don't care what their excuses are. I am so sick and tired of there always being a reason that something doesn't pull through like its supposed to for her. Medical issues, money issues, car issues, lazy issues, whatever issues. There is ALWAYS some reason. I'm sick of it. She's irresponsible, inconsiderate, and weak. I don't want to be around weak people anymore...
