I Am Not As Strong As You Think I Am

i am having a mental breakdown i hate where am right i don't know what to do i feel really lost and alone i am scared i am beyond scared i can only think negatively about every thing honestly i don't have any thing like hope left in me i am not post this for pity or for help because no one can save me not any more i just wanted to it off my chest im gonna be off Facebook for awhile and i will have phone on silent clearing notification every now and again just know im not ignoring you your just constantly missing me