I Am Not As Strong As You Think I Am

Alot of people I know have heard about some of the aweful things I've been through as a child or adult and tell me how strong I am to continue living and wear a smile on my face. They see the scar on my face and think that I'm a tough girl for going through it. But I'm so scared. I wake up every other night, screaming and crying. I can never leave my house by myself. I extremely nervous and uncomfortable around anyone I'm not very familiar with without my husband being there to talk for me. I wish more than anything else in the world that I could just forget it all and never have to deal with it again. When people tell me how "strong" i am, it just makes me feel more powerless.