I Am Not As Strong As You Think I Am

I'm not as strong as you think... this sentence hits home for me... I hate to think that I am not strong enough to overcome my past and just deal with it...I hate to say that I have a past... i hate to think that at one time i was very happy with my self and life but that i consitently find my self worried and depressed... will i ever be good enough... will i ever be able to face my past and be okay again...

This was my thinking before I met a man so amazing that he changed everything for me. While I still get depressed and feel worthless I know that in his eyes I am an amazing caring loveable person who deserved compassion and understanding and that I am beautiful and kind and an amazing woman that he sees when he looks at me. But I also know that he is willing to help through the times my judgement fades and that I just don't care about my self or the world. I know that he loves me for me and I hope he knows that I love him because he is the only one who has made me able to stand up to my past and tell it that it had no jurisdiction over me anymore because I AM STRONGER THAN I THINK AND I CAN ACHIEVE ANYTHING.

RyanVersawOld · M

Strength is only seen through pain and spite. This light that you look through ghost before your eyes and in front of your. You can do all that you must and all that you should. If you even must exert then you have tried more than you were born to do and all that only hurts more in the end.

You must be spanked so that you remember most of what I say every day that you are here. Bare your bottom for me for you are naughty.

Bears your bottom and get over my knee.

Tell me that you love me for I am Man