I Am Not As Strong As You Think I Am
I'm not as strong as you think... this sentence hits home for me... I hate to think that I am not strong enough to overcome my past and just deal with it...I hate to say that I have a past... i hate to think that at one time i was very happy with my self and life but that i consitently find my self worried and depressed... will i ever be good enough... will i ever be able to face my past and be okay again...
This was my thinking before I met a man so amazing that he changed everything for me. While I still get depressed and feel worthless I know that in his eyes I am an amazing caring loveable person who deserved compassion and understanding and that I am beautiful and kind and an amazing woman that he sees when he looks at me. But I also know that he is willing to help through the times my judgement fades and that I just don't care about my self or the world. I know that he loves me for me and I hope he knows that I love him because he is the only one who has made me able to stand up to my past and tell it that it had no jurisdiction over me anymore because I AM STRONGER THAN I THINK AND I CAN ACHIEVE ANYTHING.
This was my thinking before I met a man so amazing that he changed everything for me. While I still get depressed and feel worthless I know that in his eyes I am an amazing caring loveable person who deserved compassion and understanding and that I am beautiful and kind and an amazing woman that he sees when he looks at me. But I also know that he is willing to help through the times my judgement fades and that I just don't care about my self or the world. I know that he loves me for me and I hope he knows that I love him because he is the only one who has made me able to stand up to my past and tell it that it had no jurisdiction over me anymore because I AM STRONGER THAN I THINK AND I CAN ACHIEVE ANYTHING.
26-30, F
