I think it’s because I know my worth that it bothers me people don’t like me.

I’m not talking attention. I can get that free and easy. It’s under stimulating.

I want an enriching connection. I want to ascend as individuals together. Let our fires burn and blaze and roar as one.

I have lived 😆 holy shit it’s been HARD and I’ve been STRONG and I feel capable of moving mountains for my son, for love, for friendship, for strangers. I crave more. I can’t stop it. It feels out of my control this pull into the deep.

Just ugh I want to share. I will go alone and it’s cool. Truly it’s cool because I can get through fkn anything. But I don’t wanna.

If nothing else at least my son won’t ever see me settle for bullshit. If he can have a family someday that’s all I wanted anyway. And I suppose I’ll dry up like a prune, all this sexual energy for nothing *dramatic sigh* 🤣 But I’ll always have myself and I trust who I’ve become 🖤