I Am a Loner
I am a unique type of loner. I need and even enjoy human interaction in small doses. I would not ever want to live in total isolation. I think that would cause me to become depressed. In the type of limited social interactions that I crave, I can actually behave like an extrovert. I am not shy at all.
However, I find that too much togetherness with anyone ( even my family ) is annoying and suffocating to me. I need my own space. I need solitude like I need air to breathe. If I can't have a place where I can just get to myself and not be disturbed, then I become downright irascible.
I think I would lose my mind if I had to be in a confined area with another human being and not be able to escape. It wouldn't matter if he or she were the nicest, most polite person in the world. We would get on each other's nerves.
It is for these reasons ( and a whole host of other reasons that I won't bore you with ) that I have chosen never to marry or have children. I would be miserable, and everyone else would be equally miserable.
I fear getting old because of the dependency and lack of mobility that often comes with old age. I would almost rather jump of a bridge than live in a nursing home. I would lose my mind.
I want to enjoy being young, healthy, and able-bodied while I still can. People who become too dependent lose solitude, privacy, and dignity.
I am wondering if anyone can understand or relate to anything I have just shared. If so, share your thoughts/experiences.
However, I find that too much togetherness with anyone ( even my family ) is annoying and suffocating to me. I need my own space. I need solitude like I need air to breathe. If I can't have a place where I can just get to myself and not be disturbed, then I become downright irascible.
I think I would lose my mind if I had to be in a confined area with another human being and not be able to escape. It wouldn't matter if he or she were the nicest, most polite person in the world. We would get on each other's nerves.
It is for these reasons ( and a whole host of other reasons that I won't bore you with ) that I have chosen never to marry or have children. I would be miserable, and everyone else would be equally miserable.
I fear getting old because of the dependency and lack of mobility that often comes with old age. I would almost rather jump of a bridge than live in a nursing home. I would lose my mind.
I want to enjoy being young, healthy, and able-bodied while I still can. People who become too dependent lose solitude, privacy, and dignity.
I am wondering if anyone can understand or relate to anything I have just shared. If so, share your thoughts/experiences.
41-45, F
