I Am A Loner And Probably Will Always Be A Loner

I enjoy my solitude. Friendships and romantic relationships don't always work out. I haven't found people who stick around and want a friendship with me in real life. I feel happy when I'm alone. I associate friendships and romantic relationships with pain, anger, disappointment, and other negative feelings. I rarely get crushes on people because crushes fade. I’m probably jaded by past negative experiences with friendships, so I believe friendships don’t last and long-term friendships don’t exist. Books, movies, TV shows, movies, poems, plays, and songs talk about friendships and romantic relationships that work out, but I don’t believe they do because it’s false, a fairy tale. Friendships we want to last are difficult to find because they don’t exist. They’re made up. I don’t hear stories about friendships that are strong and last in real life. It’s a myth. I know people who have many acquaintances. I notice people searching for true friends, but I don’t know anyone in real life who found true friends. I see people in groups and people hanging out with the same people again and again, but are they truly friends, or only acquaintances? I’m aware of how to differentiate friends and acquaintances. Are people just pretending to have friends when they know that the people they spend time and talk with are only acquaintances, in an effort to appear to have friends, when in reality they don’t truly have friends?