I Am a Loner

I havant been having the greatest of days even though I am on holiday with family and friends I am finding it so difficult because I’m too observing of others and their actions to notice that maybe I am just a boring and depressive person even though I try so hard not to be and I find it so difficult to be around people who I feel find me to be this way.

I have always been a loner even as a child and i would always be standing alone and today I went swimming with the family and found myself again by myself while they all mingled, I stood at the edge of the pool and just watched them all play and chat and they acting like I wasn’t there and it hurts a lot to feel invisible.

I feel I don’t fit in anywhere and never have done and no matter how much positivity I try and fill my head with I still end up back i this negative frame of mind because of peoples actions and my sensitivity to everything around me.

Being alone is better no one can hurt you!