I'm a Loner Most of the Time

@PhoenixPhail yes, just trying to determine who I want to be, so that I can be the friend I should be.

@schizosaint Why don't you just be the person that you are, the friendly one, and not worry about what you should be?

@PhoenixPhail people want someone who is sane, I want to be that for them, but it takes me time to heal from schizoaffective disorder and move on from the crazy stories. So that I can be my sweet loving interesting self and talk about normal things.

@schizosaint Sounds reasonable. How does the schizoaffective disorder make you behave when you're around other people? Are the crazy stories the ones in your head, or are they happening in the physical world?

@PhoenixPhail both, my hellucinations and so called delusions, and the very real investigation and exploitation. Its my burden not too many people would understand so maybe I should just ignore it, since its mild as of late.

@schizosaint It's great that it's mild, as of late, but is it something you can work with rather than against. I don't know that ignoring it would be the best thing, since it's something that exists. It sounds like you're struggling with it. I do understand what it is, and how it would make you want to hide out - escape the world. Let me know if you would like to talk, okay?

@PhoenixPhail thank you, I'd like that.....but as for tonight I think Im going to get to bed....I appreciate our time together. Gnite.

@schizosaint Good night. Talk soon.