I am a social intuitive introvert

I spend most of my time by myself, my family tries to invite me to things but I end up not going at times, and I have three friends who I haven’t seen in a long time real life friends ( one friendship still developing with someone I have written and texted to for many months.) and now two online friends since I haven’t heard from Mark since late September. I am a more social introvert but still an introvert. I need a balance of alone time and time spent with one or two people or a small group of people at a time. I have hobbies and passions to keep myself entertained. I enjoy arts and crafts, music, creative writing, reading, journaling, learning languages, word search games, listening to podcasts, vlogs, and audiobooks., I also enjoy research about many topics including science, watching movies and tv, and much more. There are sometimes I wish I could see my friends more often ( the real life ones) at least once or twice a week instead of months going by without seeing them. Though I am great at keeping my own company and need time alone to recharge once in a while I feel lonely. I do need to spend enough time alone in order to feel balanced and conserve my energy but once in a while it would be nice to have someone to spend time with. Outside of my family. My online friends Chester and Bobby are willing to talk to me on a regular basis at least, especially my friend Bobby. Bobby would talk to me almost every day if I wanted to. I can make small talk but prefer to talk about deep more philosophical topics. I need quiet and a calm , tranquil atmosphere to concentrate on doing things the most noise I want in the background is soothing music. If someone is watching tv I tend to shut the door between rooms if I am writing or doing visual arts. I listen to audiobooks, music, or podcasts while doing textile and fiber crafts not too loud though. I can be easily entertained for hours at a time and either focus on my projects or doing something like learning languages, reading, word searches etc. and can get lost in thought and daydreams if I am just thinking. I focus well on doing one task, project, or activity at a time. I’m terrible at multitasking and can only do one or two things at a time at most. I often think before I speak even when I want to blurt things out because I am angry and annoyed. Like when my family makes rude criticisms and comments about my clothing choices.. people sometimes mistake me for an extrovert because I can be quite talkative when interested and comfortable in a conversation and with the people I am with. I sometimes watch people and if they are friendly and approach me starting a conversation depending on how I feel I’ll be open to it. I actually have had the guts to approach a couple of people when they were alone when out and about and strike a friendship maybe I noticed a book they were reading that I liked. But most of the time I let other people approach me first in real life. I often text people vs calling them on the phone. But with my close family members and closest friends I have video called and liked it. I like hearing about people’s life stories. I have no patience for putting up with people’s demands whatsoever so a public facing job with directly dealing with customers etc. is out of the question. I am very sensitive and do not do well. With demanding obnoxious people or highly charged situations I could snap and tell someone to fuck off depending how angry I am or go back somewhere and cry. While I can attend festivals or cultural events like outdoor markets for artisan wares and fairs and concerts and plays and dances it is because I am people watching and not having to interact with everyone. I can have a blast and feel pumped up and enjoy all the activities around me but even if I have a blast, then I will need time at least a day or two for a break and peace and quiet. I like reflection and thinking about theoretical concepts such as what the future will look like. I imagine all sorts of scenarios about my life. I’m often accused of living in a fantasy world and I’m idealistic instead of really realistic. I’m constantly. Thinking and I like to share my opinions and insights/revelations when I have had time to brainstorm and mull things over. Sometimes I feel lonely because there are so few people who understand me even in my family. I am an intuitive, social introvert. I could go on….