I am looking at thinkers and scientists from my lineage and there are a good few. Known , studied and published about.

And they were all capable of using advanced classical arabic to form their works.

Here I am.

I studied Arabic formally for more than 9 years. I had better sources than any of them.

Though I scored the best nationally at the age of 15, I don't remember even 80% of what I used to know regarding the language and the related linguistics.

I feel like my mind has deteriorated with the excessive use of latin languages. I really do. Especially when I compare myself to my ancestors.

They were all high achievers. Either warriors or revolutionaries or scientists and scholars.

To the extent that even racist Arabs where I live attempt to appease me once they know about my family name and tribes.

I feel too weak, too stupid and too tired.

Did I make groundbreaking contributions? Maybe but not as much as those who proceeded me.

I have to try harder.

But I am also so very tired.

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Boeing · 36-40

when it comes to language Miram I can relate.

Personally, even though I can express myself quite well in English, the language is still not my own and f get stuck at moments, miss the flow, miss references, etc.
Whilst at the same time, I find my self deteriorating in my native language, Greek, which is such a special language..so rich in ways...

I feel saddened by myself in that language fields. I would actually like to devote more time in language learning than what happens naturally as I live and practice.

I learnt a bit of Chinese, but I have forgotten most of it, despite before leaving China I could hold a simple, basic conversation. That was another wonderful language.

I think there is only so much time that we have and we need to devote it properly at something.....and somewhat language hasn't been yet my field ...
But I relate to your concern in my own personal way...

Miram · 31-35, F

@Boeing

I grew up speaking tamazight languages, my native tongues , and learnt arabic in school.

Hebrew, French, English, Turkish and other languages too later on.

Arabic is important because it holds a lot of "change" power where I am. It is more than just a language. In terms of spoken Arabic varieties, I am still on top of the game. But written Arabic? Not as much.

The structure of Arabic is so advanced compared to latin languages. Advanced in allowing far more artistic expressions, mathematics-like precision..not to offend latin language speakers. But I don't think they even remotely compare to its fascinating richness. I studied sociolinguistics for a time so I am not talking just for the sake of yapping.

It holds so much depth and requires intelligence and complexity you will rarely encounter in other languages.

Also it is the language of our second invaders; Arabs..so me saying this isn't actually a statement which stems from some sort of a positive correlation and bias. The opposite. My ancestors had to learn it and master it because they had to strive for our people's survival.

And I feel like I have wasted all of that without even trying to. All the hard work for nothing.

Boeing · 36-40

@Miram I am so sorry, Intelligence does add to feeling the whole weight of responsibility.
But intelligence does steer your mind too, in seeing all the work you ARE doing. So.

Time in this 3D is finite and so we get to spend it in certain ways.

Perhaps if I were to really fully engage into languages, I would go towards hypnosis. I believe a session with an hypnotherapist can unlock certain areas related to language.