I INFJ Struggles
It's easy to say something when your not even walk on my shoe...
I'm just human being like everybody else,I have feeling too,I wanted to be treat like normal people... I know I'm so freaking stubborn, stone head,rebel kid,fugly,stupid,not worthy,because i'm not perfect,i'm not golden daughter,bcs i'm just unwanted weird kid that accidentally born,even my family always complaining about who I am,while outside the house I'm known as a nice girl shocker right haha...
I never show any hurt feeling bcs I learn to cover it up since I was kid,I'm being who I am today because I tried to be strong and tough...
Everyone may hate me because of it,but no one realized and understand the reason why I am being like this,they doesn't care about it...
so they were always take a blame on me,I know I'm just a burden trash who always wrong in every single way,but they were no better them self...
I don't want them or anyone else to feel what I felt bcs its suck as hell...
Everyone's know that I was a tough bad girl while the truth is I'm just a little insecure victim who need someone to hug and tell me that 'it's okay and I understand how you feel' but sadly its fucking no one out there who do that,maybe I'm just a waste of time...
So that's why outside the house or the family I always try to be nice and helpful,I try to became friends with someone who block everyone out,I try to became friends with who everyone hate at class,bcs its suck to be like that and I already know they act like that bcs they were have their own reason to be like that,bcs its familiar with my own feel...
I learn to understand people,discovering something,and try not to judge them I mean I learn to look at their POV before I talk,I try to be an open minded,share positive vibe...good girl aren't I??
But when I'm going back home,everything was back to where I wear a crazy stupid tough lazy girl mask who everyone hated....
Its like I'm having two life haha
The suck things of being an INFJ,I can be a good and I can be a bad,we can see through their soul but they can't do that to us..
I'm just human being like everybody else,I have feeling too,I wanted to be treat like normal people... I know I'm so freaking stubborn, stone head,rebel kid,fugly,stupid,not worthy,because i'm not perfect,i'm not golden daughter,bcs i'm just unwanted weird kid that accidentally born,even my family always complaining about who I am,while outside the house I'm known as a nice girl shocker right haha...
I never show any hurt feeling bcs I learn to cover it up since I was kid,I'm being who I am today because I tried to be strong and tough...
Everyone may hate me because of it,but no one realized and understand the reason why I am being like this,they doesn't care about it...
so they were always take a blame on me,I know I'm just a burden trash who always wrong in every single way,but they were no better them self...
I don't want them or anyone else to feel what I felt bcs its suck as hell...
Everyone's know that I was a tough bad girl while the truth is I'm just a little insecure victim who need someone to hug and tell me that 'it's okay and I understand how you feel' but sadly its fucking no one out there who do that,maybe I'm just a waste of time...
So that's why outside the house or the family I always try to be nice and helpful,I try to became friends with someone who block everyone out,I try to became friends with who everyone hate at class,bcs its suck to be like that and I already know they act like that bcs they were have their own reason to be like that,bcs its familiar with my own feel...
I learn to understand people,discovering something,and try not to judge them I mean I learn to look at their POV before I talk,I try to be an open minded,share positive vibe...good girl aren't I??
But when I'm going back home,everything was back to where I wear a crazy stupid tough lazy girl mask who everyone hated....
Its like I'm having two life haha
The suck things of being an INFJ,I can be a good and I can be a bad,we can see through their soul but they can't do that to us..