I am tired of you. I am tired of you being a mess and expecting me to fix the consequences of your actions

I am tired of it. Now even when your life is threatened and there are people who want to hurt you, I don't feel like saving you. And this is horrible. It is horrible that I feel this way. When you were a baby I held you. I sang to you. I loved you.

Somewhere along the road you became an unrecognizable monster..in your twenties and already have a criminal record over such stupid shit.

You burdened me again and again. I spent money I should have spent elsewhere to fix your mess..and now again you borrow from scum and get involved with them, and don't even disclose where you're wasting all the money.

I am tired of your shit.

I am tired of the people who come to me to help you. I am even tired of your mother who wouldn't cut you off so you can suffer and understand how effing senseless it is to ruin your life.

I don't want to do anything about it. I am angry that I have to make this horrible choice. I shouldn't have to. Even not helping you is burdening to me.
You idiot.