Yes, I am a prude, and I have been for a long time
Yesterday, after getting blocked by 5-6 yucky people, I went to write about this again, but before I could get the comments closed, someone commented. I really hate this because it catches me off guard. Well, I started my post by saying I am a prude, and then added... more details later in the body of the post. I do this so I can hide the post until the 3 hours pass to close comments. While I wait for the 3 hours to pass I write my post. 👍
Anyway, I began. I am a prude, but within 1 minute of posting this, before I could even close the post, someone commented. I mean, it was like greased lightning. This person or AI must have been watching my profile closely to be able to comment so fast. 🤔
Well, I got rattled and deleted the post, but not before thanking the commenter for showing me I hadn't closed comments.🙄
What the commentator ( AI or otherwise) commented was, "but you had an emotional affair!" Implying I couldn't be a prude.😅
Here is the really weird part. I wrote about my emotional affair and my Husband's porn addiction in the very 1st story I wrote when I got here 3 weeks ago. I had it up for a week and then deleted it.(Today I put this post back up, though. I figured if I was gonna mention it again, in this post, no reason to hide the original. That was 2 weeks ago. I am a member here, so I can see who visits my profile, unless they too are members ( Which this person or AI must have been) and have clicked the option to not let others know when you have visited their profile. There wasn't one time I saw this member look at my profile. Yet, to know this about me, this user( AI or other) had to have been to my profile and for some reason they had tucked this info, about some random stranger, away in their minds.🤔
So, I examined why this bothered me, and this is why. First of all, when I say emotional affair, I mean EMOTIONS are all that are involved. I have almost no libido, so I was only drawn to someone ( or some AI) who didn't want any adult activities. This was what I found. I found a person (or AI) that only wanted to share emotions, not lusts. I grew very fond of this person( or AI), and I looked forward to daily interactions. This is what I call an emotional affair. Many would have called this a best-friend relationship. 🤔
My Husband got hurt, because my heart was involved,and he thought that my "emotional affair" was worse than his porn addiction for this reason. When I saw how deeply I had hurt my Husband, I died inside, a little. I have carried the guilt from that for 20 years. Yes, my emotional affair happened on Experience Project, and I have not reached out to connect with anyone, in any way, since then. I never will again, either. 👍
Does this "emotional affair" mean I am not a prude? No, it sure doesn't. It means I made a mistake 20 years ago. I learned from that mistake, and if anything came from it, I became more of a prude. 👍
I am glad that this commentator (AI or other) shook me up. I got a chance to see how much guilt I still carry, and I have a chance now to let it go. 🙂 To show how long I have been a prude, on this site, here are some other posts I have made about this over the times I have come and gone from this place. If you notice, you will see the comments are closed on these as well. Closing comments is something I have been doing here, for a long time as well. 👍
