I wish I knew if I'll ever be loved and held again.

@Bexsy It makes me so sad. You are so adorably funny, smart and sweet. Someone should be loving the hell out of you.

But I get it. Starting over and over again, my heart doesn't have the stamina anymore.

@MarbleMarvel we both should be loved well, but yeah, exactly it. Just can't pick the pieces up and keep on keeping on anymore

@Bexsy too sweet for all that mess

@Ichigo I'd want to know if love is in my future. Because if it's not I want to let it go and not waste the brain energy. And the heartache. It hurts.

I will enjoy my life no matter what but damnit I want to experience a healthy relationship before this life is over. And I need hugs. I need warmth.

@MarbleMarvel Then let me tell you that it is in your future because nothing is impossible.
Let go of the 'needing to know', get on with your life because when you do find him, the last thing you want is to be stressed out and anxious from worrying all the time.

@DayDreamer3 Oh I have tried, I have not tried and everything in between. I can't control if someone cherishes me. Shit they act like they do, then they don't. I can't take it. I'm not stopping myself, no, I wish for it every day.

@Madmonk it feels like I'm harnessing the pain. Saddled it to forge my path. But friend I'm so tired.

@MarbleMarvel I totally understand what you say.

@icedsky I don't know how. I don't want to do dating apps. I don't want to get my heart broken again. But I also know being afraid means it definitely won't happen. I know what I want, but it never wants me back. I don't know.