Loving An Empath
Do souls have GPS?
I have a kind of spinning top in my chest or a "needle" (like that in a compass) in my heart that spins and spins real fast. I call it my souls GPS and I check it from time to time for directions. When someone directs their love or attention at me strongly I can feel the "gravity" of their attention pull on that needle and my spinning top starts to wobble. If the love is strong (and has a romantic undertone to it) the top can "fall" for them. This of course throws off my GPS something terrible.
"If love is not madness it is not love."
But when you connect to another through love or compassion your "magnetic north" shifts toward them at the level of the heart and you can then feel their compass needle... and where it spins. This is why a sensitive lover knows when they are betrayed but it can be deceiving.
When it pulls away from us we can sense it. I am an empath and share many intimate relationships with all the friends I meet. My compass needle can spin 3 or 4 times a day and in a sense the world is my lover. I can connect several people in my heart in a kind of psychic conference call of sorts, I call this "crossing the streams" and as in the movie Ghostbusters... crossing the streams is not a wise choice but sometimes a necessary one. I noticed right away that many women (because of there ego) think almost instantly, when my needle spins and my whole being suddenly loves someone else completely, that I have betrayed her in some way. So my lover must understand that she is my "true north" and when the needle returns to center... she is the center it returns to. I bring the love and inspiration I receive from the world back to her and present it to her like an offering at the alter of her heart. She is my goddess. My deity through which I see the universal connective principle that humans like to call love.
I do not approve of "selfish worldly love" that inhibits the hearts fluid motion and freedom of movement. You should be able to "trust" your partner completely and allow their "needle" to spinfreely. We should enjoy knowing our lovers are experiencing life and learning and engaging the world with there hearts and we should take pleasure in that. But this requires a level of trust that few understand or are willing to give. It makes us completely vulnerable.
There "can" be a flaw with this however. If our lovers spend to much time getting all their higher inspiration from others online or even with hobbies at home and not from us then we suffer, like flowers without the sun to nourish them. Our love begins to fade. Relationships are like gardens to me, they need to be tended with a loving hand.
So how do you protect yourself when your so vulnerable? By not attaching selfish notions or feelings to your lover. Learn to enjoy the glass already broken and your time spent with it will be more precious. True love is like the eternal Tao, to grasp it is to lose it. It is ephemeral. Often by being jealous or fearing that we will lose love we bring that fear to life. Life hurts and one day we have to face losing everything we have. We will die. I choose to give up my attachments now so that the season of giving can be mine and not my inheritors. By doing so I live and love fully without expectations or selfish desires for my partners.
When they (should they chose to) leave or fall in love with another human being then we simply go our separate ways you see? There is no reason to be hurt or harmed. And I never stop loving them, I don't have to. There love makes me beautiful inside so why would I let go of that?
I have a kind of spinning top in my chest or a "needle" (like that in a compass) in my heart that spins and spins real fast. I call it my souls GPS and I check it from time to time for directions. When someone directs their love or attention at me strongly I can feel the "gravity" of their attention pull on that needle and my spinning top starts to wobble. If the love is strong (and has a romantic undertone to it) the top can "fall" for them. This of course throws off my GPS something terrible.
"If love is not madness it is not love."
But when you connect to another through love or compassion your "magnetic north" shifts toward them at the level of the heart and you can then feel their compass needle... and where it spins. This is why a sensitive lover knows when they are betrayed but it can be deceiving.
When it pulls away from us we can sense it. I am an empath and share many intimate relationships with all the friends I meet. My compass needle can spin 3 or 4 times a day and in a sense the world is my lover. I can connect several people in my heart in a kind of psychic conference call of sorts, I call this "crossing the streams" and as in the movie Ghostbusters... crossing the streams is not a wise choice but sometimes a necessary one. I noticed right away that many women (because of there ego) think almost instantly, when my needle spins and my whole being suddenly loves someone else completely, that I have betrayed her in some way. So my lover must understand that she is my "true north" and when the needle returns to center... she is the center it returns to. I bring the love and inspiration I receive from the world back to her and present it to her like an offering at the alter of her heart. She is my goddess. My deity through which I see the universal connective principle that humans like to call love.
I do not approve of "selfish worldly love" that inhibits the hearts fluid motion and freedom of movement. You should be able to "trust" your partner completely and allow their "needle" to spinfreely. We should enjoy knowing our lovers are experiencing life and learning and engaging the world with there hearts and we should take pleasure in that. But this requires a level of trust that few understand or are willing to give. It makes us completely vulnerable.
There "can" be a flaw with this however. If our lovers spend to much time getting all their higher inspiration from others online or even with hobbies at home and not from us then we suffer, like flowers without the sun to nourish them. Our love begins to fade. Relationships are like gardens to me, they need to be tended with a loving hand.
So how do you protect yourself when your so vulnerable? By not attaching selfish notions or feelings to your lover. Learn to enjoy the glass already broken and your time spent with it will be more precious. True love is like the eternal Tao, to grasp it is to lose it. It is ephemeral. Often by being jealous or fearing that we will lose love we bring that fear to life. Life hurts and one day we have to face losing everything we have. We will die. I choose to give up my attachments now so that the season of giving can be mine and not my inheritors. By doing so I live and love fully without expectations or selfish desires for my partners.
When they (should they chose to) leave or fall in love with another human being then we simply go our separate ways you see? There is no reason to be hurt or harmed. And I never stop loving them, I don't have to. There love makes me beautiful inside so why would I let go of that?
