I Am Different [Being Different]

I feel like there's something wrong with me. 98% of the posts on this site seem completely boring and asinine to me. Like, I read them and it's an experience akin to looking at wood-grain lines - it's not as bad as watching paint dry or something, but I still have no desire to spend my time doing it. The same is true irl - most of the things that people talk about seem so pointless to me. I WISH that I could look at random memes or make small talk about nothing or enjoy this texting mentality that seems so prevalent nowadays - but I can't. I wish that the funny, banter-y stuff that makes up 95% of this site appealed to me. But it doesn't.

Unless a conversation has depth or intimacy or something else that gives it meaning, then I just don't get anything out of it. I never have, and I don't think I ever will. It's not a fun way to live, but it's who I am.