I Always Get Asked Why Im So Quiet

Well, (×_×; well, I hate myself whenever I hang out with people who I am not close with. Like during lunch break I have a friend which I am comfortable hanging with but with the group of people we hang out during lunch,I'm not. I don't know. Maybe age? I don't really know. Maybe I was just really a misfit. I'm getting stress over it. Sometimes I'm thinking it's like it's better to just eat alone in your desk than to "socialize" with people you less know. OMG. I'm not really good at it. I don't wanna hang out anymore like for real. Fuck social shit. If getting social makes you sad and feel bad about yourself about how bad is your social skills, then I prefer not to be social. Migosh. Real friends just come. Okay. Its like I don't know. Maybe I'm just so fucking tired of listening to shits to their own stories Lol. XD it's like whew. I don't know. I feel selfish. But.. whatever. This is bullshit entirely.