why does the thought that i could be 'rejected' always ' wipe me out'
i've always found rejection from women i liked and interacted with devastating, i only interact with my own race white girls, but i've made that point enough.
anyway there's this pale redhead lady on my facebook friends who was a class mate back in primary school in the mid 80s, i always liked her and glad she's on my friends on facebook, anyhow, i was chatting to her on messenger earlier and she said ' can i phone you sometime? i find texting awkward and would love to hear your voice after so long'.
well, i was really over the moon by her suggesting that, really happy and i told her that and said it'd be nice to hear from her sometime by phone and gave her my landline and mobile number, it was late, so i replied back to her at midnight and i think she'd gone to bed by then, so i left her that reply then logged out.
but i felt so excited and happy at her suggestion, but also nervous at the thought of speaking to a lady because it's been so long since i did? but i also thought that i'd feel really devastated if she never ended up phoning me after she suggested it and i gave her my numbers?.....i would feel really rejected and disappointed, as she is someone i really like and always liked.
any thoughts?
anyway there's this pale redhead lady on my facebook friends who was a class mate back in primary school in the mid 80s, i always liked her and glad she's on my friends on facebook, anyhow, i was chatting to her on messenger earlier and she said ' can i phone you sometime? i find texting awkward and would love to hear your voice after so long'.
well, i was really over the moon by her suggesting that, really happy and i told her that and said it'd be nice to hear from her sometime by phone and gave her my landline and mobile number, it was late, so i replied back to her at midnight and i think she'd gone to bed by then, so i left her that reply then logged out.
but i felt so excited and happy at her suggestion, but also nervous at the thought of speaking to a lady because it's been so long since i did? but i also thought that i'd feel really devastated if she never ended up phoning me after she suggested it and i gave her my numbers?.....i would feel really rejected and disappointed, as she is someone i really like and always liked.
any thoughts?
46-50, M
