The real me

It's a social pressure & it's common - many persons just conform to social diktats.
In Europe & US, the personal rights are asserted to a larger degree, whereas in Asia & other places there is more suffocating society. People don't bring out their unique personality at all. It leads to criticism, boycott & even attacks. But all that is changing slowly.
(And even in US, many others are shy or meek.Thats not a crime)
Why not put up a wish list type of thing and try out one thing of that. Maybe a small tat to begin. Then a cool dress.
Breaking out may not be easy, but can be tried.
Love and greetings

In parts of the U.S it is fine. I just love a more country feel. New York and Chicago and big cities don't bat an eye to those thing. But I have always loved the countryside. I grew up near Chicago and it is my most hated place of all time. Yet it is my cousins favorite. Same upbringing.

So sorry it's that way and you can't feel comfortable :(