It is hard to make a decision and so I will try write things down
Option A, go on with my current job. It is under the sun, there's some pressure but I like the people I work with, I feel good with them. I am expanding in new ways, getting more exposure, dressing well, and being within an environment that at moments feels hard but at other moments feel like a family. I feel so needy of something famil-iar.
Is that even real though ? The sun is hot for my skin and eyes, and the exposure is too much, I am left with no energy once I return home - not necessarily something I complain about, but something that has a cost on my physical body, kidneys, bladder, heart, etc.
Option B, design my art project and suggest it to the municipality, but that feels like I am on my own. It gives me opportunity to grow in my field though and I am respected there. I am also offering to the world, my gifts of art.
This is again setting me into that unfamiliar territory of moving around, going places, as they have asked me to work with the villages. Again, not settling, again on the go. Even if I go for option B, I cannot make sure that my project will go through and they will fund it. But it was them who've asked me to work with them again, saying how pleased they have been from the previous project I did 4 years back.
Option C, look for something else. And leave the island. Cut ties. Take the decision to go away. Since things can be pretty here, but there is something old. Like a trip in time.
Your comments or advice on that one, particularly means a lot to me. Thank you sweeps .. 🩵
Is that even real though ? The sun is hot for my skin and eyes, and the exposure is too much, I am left with no energy once I return home - not necessarily something I complain about, but something that has a cost on my physical body, kidneys, bladder, heart, etc.
Option B, design my art project and suggest it to the municipality, but that feels like I am on my own. It gives me opportunity to grow in my field though and I am respected there. I am also offering to the world, my gifts of art.
This is again setting me into that unfamiliar territory of moving around, going places, as they have asked me to work with the villages. Again, not settling, again on the go. Even if I go for option B, I cannot make sure that my project will go through and they will fund it. But it was them who've asked me to work with them again, saying how pleased they have been from the previous project I did 4 years back.
Option C, look for something else. And leave the island. Cut ties. Take the decision to go away. Since things can be pretty here, but there is something old. Like a trip in time.
Your comments or advice on that one, particularly means a lot to me. Thank you sweeps .. 🩵
