A Peaceful Weekend
I went to the beach by myself this past Saturday. I originally wanted to go with the girlfriend, who's been quite irritable as of late, but she made it clear on Wednesday that she wouldn't be available thanks to multiple office-related obligations. I also knew that had we made plans to go together she'd try and find a way to change things so she could sleep in. I've waited on her for years for us to do this. We've gone to the beach before, but it was pretty much the boardwalk. We've never actually gone in the water together and I hadn't been able to do so in seven years until this past Saturday.
So, I drove two hours south (avoiding the highway and tolls) and arrived at my favorite beach before noon. It was overcast but I didn't care. I found a great spot, laid down my beach blanket and towel, and eventually went into the water. I packed lunch and dinner with me as I intended to stay for a few hours. I loved every minute of this, and I needed this to happen. I wasn't sure if I'd be able to do anything like this without her, being that I'd be surrounded by people everywhere. But I found an excellent spot, and this beach is never too crowded whenever I'm there.
After I ate, I took one last dip before cleaning up and driving to a bigger boardwalk with more to do. I hung around for an hour before making the two-hour drive home. I always liked driving anywhere that wasn't the main roads or highways. I could care less about the interstate highways unless they're absolutely necessary. The changes in towns and counties always fascinated me.
I arrived home just after 9pm and I felt not one ounce of anxiety or guilt for going by myself or not including her, which I always like to do. And if she were to distance herself from me again this weekend, I'd probably go back there. I can get used to this.
So, I drove two hours south (avoiding the highway and tolls) and arrived at my favorite beach before noon. It was overcast but I didn't care. I found a great spot, laid down my beach blanket and towel, and eventually went into the water. I packed lunch and dinner with me as I intended to stay for a few hours. I loved every minute of this, and I needed this to happen. I wasn't sure if I'd be able to do anything like this without her, being that I'd be surrounded by people everywhere. But I found an excellent spot, and this beach is never too crowded whenever I'm there.
After I ate, I took one last dip before cleaning up and driving to a bigger boardwalk with more to do. I hung around for an hour before making the two-hour drive home. I always liked driving anywhere that wasn't the main roads or highways. I could care less about the interstate highways unless they're absolutely necessary. The changes in towns and counties always fascinated me.
I arrived home just after 9pm and I felt not one ounce of anxiety or guilt for going by myself or not including her, which I always like to do. And if she were to distance herself from me again this weekend, I'd probably go back there. I can get used to this.
