@Lex222
Gosh, Lex, are you OK with this treatment from your boyfriend? I can understand spanking as part of sexual role play, I enjoy it myself. However, outside of this circumstance, it is a demonstration of power over you and it has the overtones of being both sadistic and perverse. Some girls find this gratifying, I know. While personally, I cannot fathom it, there seems to be a deep emotional need being met by such domination. Nonetheless, you are not too old to create a change in your life towards more independence and self-esteem. I strongly urge anyone in this situation to consult a licensed counselor or psychologist to explore if this lifestyle is something that actually adds to your life... or imprisons.
