May be weird🤷🏼‍♀

this is common esp. for many modern young women. 1. there is a reason certain crazy books are popular. They provide an outlet for the shadows stored in the unconsciousness. (Jung) 2. We used to have a strong polarity between men and women. Think of dancing: the guy leads, the girl follows. With modern feminism, a lot of men are confused and discouraged from taking action and a lot of girls are encouraged even though they, subconsciously crave a man to initiate. 3. You may want to feel desired, as Amur has pointed out. You may want to receive attention and feel desired - inside. However; be honest with yourself, you perhaps don't want to have sex without consent with a person you find very unattractive, do you? Many women secretly crave what you have said but with a man they find hot. There is even a term described for what you've said: CNS (consensual non-consent). Do you just want to cry and be vulnerable in front of a present man (show all your emotions without masking and without being judged) or do you want to cry during sex?

It's funny, you are very specific about what you are looking for, what you need, and every one of them i am happy to explore with you, but every one of my messages have not got a response from you?

Is that planned or might you have missed them all?

You should go to one of Aella's parties. And wear the right bracelet!

You desire being desired

Sounds to me like a good sound old fashioned spanking would do the trick!!!

If you want it that negates the without consent doesn’t it?

If you then cry is that a statement of the ability of the man?

That means a very forceful attitude towards you.