I'm happy about my penis for the first time in my life

I was heavily infantalized as a kid. My mom did everything she could to keep me an innocent little boy and avoid having me grow up at all.

I went from not even knowing that this thing had any use other than pissing, to finding out at 11, on some HBO Real Sex type show or whatever that you're supposed to put it inside people, and that it being huge is the most important thing, and it being small is the worst thing that could ever happen to a man. I measured it, it was 3", and I was crushed. I had no way of knowing that that was normal at the time, and plenty of friends at school more than happy to pretend that they had giant ones making me feel like I was a freak.

That shame stayed with me for decades. It wasn't until my mid-20s that I realized I wasn't small as an adult, and not until I just got on testosterone injections a few months ago, after finding out that I've had low T my whole life, that I first began to actually like what I have. I've gone from being completely ashamed of, terrified of, and wanting nothing to do with my dick, to being super psyched about it and feeling like I'm going through the puberty I never properly went through at 40, and I just absolutely love it. I never thought I'd get here, and I'm still working through a lot, but my relationship with myself and my body has improved massively, not to mention my relationship and sex life with my wife of 19 years. Things are better than they've ever been.

I don't have any friends I can really talk about this with, so I found this place to put these thoughts out into the universe.

Here's some of my favorite recent shots of my dick, lmk what you think... I think it's pretty great 😁