Do orgasms make you feel good or bad about yourself? Does it change when you have them by yourself or shared with others?

I by and large find orgasms non-positive and not particularly enjoyable. I've not had any sex in over 10 years so only orgasms I get are with myself.

Would it be different if I had a legitimately genuine caring romantic partner? Maybe.

But where does someone find a *legitimately genuine* caring romantic partner anymore?