How did we get to this? ( I am not as miserable as this makes me sound,)

Growing up in the 1960's there was a lot of guilt and negativity around masturbation. Sex was rarely available even if you had a girlfriend.
You got married without much experience and attitudes to sex were dominated by teaching of churches.

So now i find myself more "liberated" and more experienced having discovered women from various backgrounds and learned from experts, not internet porn.

Then 10 years ago I get involved with an attractive Asian girl keen to please in order to secure her prosperity in a new country.

Now she's keen to travel and lead the rich life on her terms so she trades a simple suburban married life with me for a more exciting non-monogamous relationship.

This would have been acceptable to me if I had not been passed by and left in a no- sex marriage where she only spends 80% of her time at home.

Little wonder I now must concentrate on masturbating like I did when i was 14 with friends on SW.