Any girls or women who turns on while being humiliated and insulted?

LaLa81 · 41-45, FVIP

About seven months ago I discovered my degradation and humiliation kink , and I don't exaggerate when I say it changed my life. I love giving up all my power to these small women, it turns me on so much. It’s all about loss of control for me, there’s nothing like it. My motivation as a submissive into humiliation and degradation is mostly driven by a desire to be different, to have different rules applied to me. When combined with exhibitionism there is an element of thrill and excitement.

I thrive of being subjected to humiliations others wouldn't, not because it's a bad but thing, rather because it's a good thing perfect for me. I was terrified of shame and humiliation for most of my life. I used to be obsessed with maintaining a facade of perfection at all times. Always in control, always in charge, always a step ahead of everyone around me. It was exhausting and didn't leave much energy for anything else. I really enjoy the power exchange reinforcement with these small women. In those moments they are in control of my mind in a way that is very intense. I feel small, and vulnerable, submissive and often quite a bit aroused when humiliated.

My boyfriend is okay with me actually being with a woman or having sex with one. he says it is not cheating and explains that he does not get jealous over women , the reasoning being that he's not that well-versed and educated in sexuality. his distrust in men in general (being pushy with flirting, pursuing, etc.) is what makes him feel more jealous. My boyfriend is extremely jealous of guys, even the ugly ones! "If ANYONE could steal my big ebony girl, it would surely be another man" he says often. My boyfriend knows that that i am not attracted to these small skinny weird women gropers sexually. The whole situation fuels my boyfriend's arousal. Our sex life is great. My boyfriend finds these touchy feely women ugly and repulsive. But he says that it turns him on that these short skinny women who are basically everything i am not are groping me and rubbing me while i just stand/sit there stiff as a board. He is always talking about it. He says that me getting groped in public by small inferior women makes him to want me in a really intense way. He gets rock hard erections.

LaLa81 · 41-45, FVIP

these women filmed a video of me getting groped. I didn't consent to it, but i am even more turned on. They made these gifs. I want these gifs on the internet. I am extremely turned on by it