I'm convinced that I no longer understand my sexuality and sexual preferences anymore

Like I'm a bloke man and never questioned my sex/gender because I'm a man with male DNA and pretty redundant (non 666 rule compliant) boy bits but I feel I've never really actually understood my sexuality and sexual preferences or even know where to start.

I reckon it's a big part of why I find any hint of potential for intimate moments or even just conversating with others should there be even the slightest hint of romantic interest either by me or towards me as highly confronting.

I constantly question my lack of understanding about sex and relationships and cannot figure out any conclusive reasoning for it. At 56 I shouldn't feel like I keep putting my head inside a black box around any sexual/romantic type feelings with no way to turn on a light. It's totally a Pandora's box with no way to put stuff in or find out what's already in it (if anything) and explore the realm.

It's why the only answer seems to be to never try and unlock the riddle of the black box of adult romantic and intimate life skills anymore and probably just accept I will never have a proper adult level understanding of any of it. I basically feel broken but don't know why or how.

I'm a full independent functioning adult blocked from having adult understanding about sex romance etc. Feels that way.

retiredbum · 56-60

Ive been bisexual for quite some time. I hid it at first but someone helped me out of my shell. Im at a point where im more attracted to men then women but im srcure in who.i really am

zonavar68 · 56-60, M

@retiredbum I've never been with anything other than 1 woman at a time. Never had any couples experiences (even when I was in a couple myself). My first ex attempted to 'save' the relationship by offering a 3 some with a guy she knew (but I didn't) however I was far too frightened by the prospect of torpedo-ing things even worse than they already were so I declined. That would have been about 14 yrs ago now.