I get called strong for not going back. I must make it look easy.
It wasn’t lol. But once you do that one thing you’re dead to me. Or anything that alludes to it. Even if I feel you had the thought of doing it. Even if it was just emotional. I can’t be with you even if I wanted to.
You wouldn’t be happy with how I act with my new found knowledge of you anyway. I will not be the same person. And if you thought I was detached before, I definitely am now. And I’m not an angel. If I get the opportunity to do the same, I’ll take it. Because you never had my best interest in mind anyway. I’d be stupid to care for yours.
I never thought you would do that. I wonder how many times you did it.
I wonder how many people I was told were just friends really weren’t.
If you wanted to have fun, why didn’t you spare me and let me leave. I tried to leave and you made me feel so bad about it. You begged me to stay for this? Maybe you thought you’d never be found out. Which I don’t blame you for thinking cause I was so trusting and allowed you to do so many things that you would never allow me to do.
If someone tells you confidently that they don’t cheat and never cheated. And were always the ones to get cheated on. You would think knowing the pain of that would make you never want anyone you care for to experience it, especially the one you can’t be without.
You were not who I thought you were. So sorry if I make it look easy to be away from you. But I wouldn’t touch you with a 10 foot poll at this point. You’re not the person I loved. That person I imagined never existed. You’re a stranger. And now that the illusion has cleared. I felt alone with you anyway. My emotional needs stopped being met a long time ago. And guess what? I still didn’t go looking for someone else to fulfill them. I stayed right there while you said your needs were also not being met and played in my face.
I never thought I’d be stupid enough to get strung along. I really believed I knew how to pick ‘em. How can I be deceived when trusting someone for me is hard to do in the first place.
I forget that there are some people that say things and don’t mean it. Cause why would someone say something they don’t mean. I forget that not everyone is like me.
You wouldn’t be happy with how I act with my new found knowledge of you anyway. I will not be the same person. And if you thought I was detached before, I definitely am now. And I’m not an angel. If I get the opportunity to do the same, I’ll take it. Because you never had my best interest in mind anyway. I’d be stupid to care for yours.
I never thought you would do that. I wonder how many times you did it.
I wonder how many people I was told were just friends really weren’t.
If you wanted to have fun, why didn’t you spare me and let me leave. I tried to leave and you made me feel so bad about it. You begged me to stay for this? Maybe you thought you’d never be found out. Which I don’t blame you for thinking cause I was so trusting and allowed you to do so many things that you would never allow me to do.
If someone tells you confidently that they don’t cheat and never cheated. And were always the ones to get cheated on. You would think knowing the pain of that would make you never want anyone you care for to experience it, especially the one you can’t be without.
You were not who I thought you were. So sorry if I make it look easy to be away from you. But I wouldn’t touch you with a 10 foot poll at this point. You’re not the person I loved. That person I imagined never existed. You’re a stranger. And now that the illusion has cleared. I felt alone with you anyway. My emotional needs stopped being met a long time ago. And guess what? I still didn’t go looking for someone else to fulfill them. I stayed right there while you said your needs were also not being met and played in my face.
I never thought I’d be stupid enough to get strung along. I really believed I knew how to pick ‘em. How can I be deceived when trusting someone for me is hard to do in the first place.
I forget that there are some people that say things and don’t mean it. Cause why would someone say something they don’t mean. I forget that not everyone is like me.
