Im terrified of Storms.
When i mean terrified i mean petrified. I had a traumatic event that happened twice before. Since i dont have a car and I bike, last time i had to bike home and the rain was so bad the lightening was over my head. At night I have to bike in the woods. I was screaming and crying my head off. The time before that I had to bike to work and I was in the eye of the storm. The lightening was flashing above me it was pouring and i was so scared I had to stop. And the barbershop next to me, The guys inside saw me and i was gonna go inside and they stood their backs agianst the door so i couldnt go inside. Lightening next to me hit a pole. And i had no choice but to keep going. By the time i got to work i was soaked from head to toe. Luckily they had an extra shirt. But i had to work soaking wet. I was crying so hard thats when my trauma happened. Today, I got out of work super late. When i got out i saw the storm was coming. And i saw it dark and it started to pour. Where i was heading the storm hadnt hit yet. The Lightening was behind me. The storm was chasing me on my bike. Im thinking i can make it. By the time i got to the woods it started to pour again. But the wood trail twists and turns that suddenly it stopped raining and then it would pour. The Lightening was getting closer. I was shaking. I can feel my heart in my throat. The storm was literally seconds behind me. I was afraid a tree was going to fall on me. And worst of all it was already dark and my light on my bike wasnt charged. I charged it last night and it wasnt working. So im biking in the dark. Little light ahead of me from where the storm hadnt hit in the sky. And behind me looked like a dark tornado. I mean it was RIGHT behind me. I can feel my backpack getting wet but not my head. Thats how close it was. And i made it in time. It rained so bad earlier today. And it started when i left work. Tomorrow its going to rain when its time to be there at work. I let my boss know if it is raining like this i will most likely be late and i would have to get a ride. I may be an hour late. I hate storms. Little rain is ok. But once the sky is dark and there is Lightening im in literal tears. Im terrified of storms more than anything. I cant do it anymore. I used to be so tough but after going through what i did i cant do it anymore. Im just too scared.
