I had a premonition about raising my vibration to gain powers talking to the dead and controlling things with my mind

I left home at 18 to find a place in nature to make a home so I could practice by myself. I'm 27 now and I did experience some serious mother nature shit. I made a sacrifice to turn down friends family and a few girls. Right now I sit at my mom's after I jumped off a building and stupidly broke my spine. Now I just want to be a part of society but in most positive way. SW helps but I know it's nothing like real life. That's all I have considering I can't go anywhere