I Have Survived a Hurricane

I fled the state to get away from the hurricane. I am in Tennessee at my brothers. I got to see some friends that I haven't seen in years which was good. But I realized how affected by my bad spell I had last year that I really am. They keep commenting on how quiet I am. After I lost all interest, it's a long hard road back and sometimes I fight it, like I don't want to come back. I just don't know how to get interested, well I know how, its all on me but first I have to want to and I just don't know if i can find the want to in me. I was in a really bad place last year, I don't know how I got through it, well I started taking my meds again but they only do so much, the rest is up to me. I am still depressed, I still have no interest in living. I only go through the motions because I am taking care of my grandchildren. They need me because their parents are idiots. I don't know maybe I am just tired, lmfao, in a sadistic way.