Really not sure why I am doing this ...

@PoetryNEmotion Thank you. :-)

@PoetryNEmotion Oh crap. I just realized I didn't answer your question. LOL. My bad.
Yes this is my daughter.
She took the divorce really hard and blamed me.
When she was 11 she got the idea that I didn't love her as much as I did her brothers and her mother nor her family bothered to tell her how wrong she was. They saw it as an opportunity to come between me and her.
So for the past 6 years she hasn't had any contact with me.
Actually just a few months ago she found out I had been sneaking onto her Facebook page and keeping up with her life best I could and she blocked me from even being able to do that.
All I ever wanted, from as long as I can remember, was to have kids so I could treat them better than I got. Give them everything that no child should ever not feel every day. Understanding. Validation. Support. Absolute unconditional love. Time.
I wrote her a letter, even tho the actual court order stated that I couldn't contact her, I had to wait for her to come to me. Her counselor created a loophole that made it not a violation for me to send the actual letter to the counselor and then the counselor could present it to her if she wanted to read it.
She didn't even bother to read it.
Now that makes it sound like I did something wrong. I didn't. My ex kept making accusations that I was using the kids to get information about her and also that I was sexualizing her and something else I can't remember right now.
Every time she would make an accusation, no matter how wild, she could stop my visits and make them supervised through the state. Those were one hour a week in a crappy room with nothing for the kids to do.
Every accusation was investigated by Child Protective Services and all found to be B.S. yet she was allowed to continue to do it with no threat of any legal ramifications.
During the supervised visits my daughter started to draw away. I just thought she needed space. What she needed was for me to spend time with her one on one rather than all four of us together.
I can see that clear as day now. What I thought was giving her space, to her, was me not going to her.
You know I could explain all that in ten minutes to her.
That's all I need is ten minutes to put things back where they should be.

@Dainbramadge I was waiting for you to reply. Listen, please. And well. She will come tonterms with this. It will take a lot of time. Then she will return to you. Please be patient. Children get older. They figure out divorce. You will have to wait longer. When she starts contacting you, take it slowly. Carefully. Like holding a wild bird in your hand. One who has crashed against a window. Understand? And slowly show her you love her. Take time. Remember my words. You have time. Your ex is trash. She will always be rotten. Forget her. Your daughter will choose you to be in her life again. You could write her letters right now. Explain how much you love her. Then give all the letters to her when she returns. Believe me. Those letters will tell her you never stopped loving her. Now go about your day. Peace will come.