I have schizophrenia they are probably going to cut my SSDI

I have no car to go find a job or so I can travel to the job. I had a close by job but they demanded accuracy and me being hyper that doesn't go well. I messed up my job history from quitting jobs, in the past. I have a old dilemma that bothers me still. I have a slit wrist that left me a bit wither from my hand, The fast food places close to me won't hire me. I'm truly screwed, not only that I have musical anhedonia