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My Sacrifice - Creed

In truth, you are the reason I made an account on this site. You were my best friend, not just on EP.
It's been so long and my memory is so bad that all of the details are fuzzy. When we met you were so suspicious, but I saw you open up and become one of the coolest people I ever met. But you were determined to leave.
You had made over a handful of EP accounts in the past, always leaving and coming back. In our final email conversation you said that EP was just another habit that you needed to break.

You sent me this song. Told me you felt it described our friendship.
You wanted me to forget you because you didn't think you were worth being remembered. But you were so important to me, that I never could forget you.
Your favorite song was Black Hole Sun, and you never told me your real name. But I didn't need a name to love you. I didn't need your name to talk to you every day, to confide in you, to trust you. I didn't need your name to remember you. Or to miss you.

I had to say goodbye to you twice. You left once but came back again, before finally leaving for good. You deleted your EP account and the email account where we spoke. You did it for your own good, and I don't blame you. But sometimes I wish you had come back, just once more. Sometimes I wish we could meet again.

I'll always miss you, my friend. And I'll always think of you when I hear this song.
"When you are with me, I'm free..."
Arorin · M
Ep was a beast of a website
Arorin · M
@thewindupbirdchronicles what i am trying to accomplish is to build a better flow and beauty to my words. As a musician I want to write on a certain level with meaning and not added fluff that doesn't mean anything at all.
@Arorin Listening
Arorin · M
@thewindupbirdchronicles i pressed send and accident
You felt love from them? Some love is just that in nature, and it's hard to let go, transient.. and I'd prefer to hold that love, in friendship, than question where it went. 😞🥺💙 You can't chase time.
@DarkAngel24 What are you chasing?
DarkAngel24 · 26-30
@thewindupbirdchronicles I think it's just hard to let go
@Arorin Trying to find flow to your words, with meaning, and looking upon what you want is not easy. I feel nonsensical at times, will reaffirm your words (I accept), and then I can write my heart out, and my deep learnings just come out. It's why I don't feel I belong in this world. If you have emotions built up, and you feel better with an instrument, dive there, practice ... write and write while you do this. They will come together.
@Arorin I spent many years letting going of someone worthwhile, her struggles, mine, you can never know... but my heart searches upon something I feel is never mine again, if you feel the same, it's hard. I do mean this though, men struggle with emotions, and what is in front of them they often miss. I can't know where you are.
Arorin · M
@thewindupbirdchronicles i see a lot of things in this world i don't like. Gandhi said to be the change you want to see in the world and where I am at is to put good things into the world. Im tired of what i see so this is the change im trying to make.
@Arorin I'd actually say, while Gandhi means beautifully, he prolongs suffering in the world, with his own misplaced anger mistaken as kind words we held we need to hear. It's nihilistic of me to say, we are at a rich understanding of people, language, education, understanding, love we have informed choices, which starts in the heart, if we go into there, we are much better off than staying within the safe emotions Ghandi needs for this to happen... (and I'm not saying don't be kind to your neighbour, or you... just a thought. It's almost emotionless, and we are emotional)
What a touching tribute. Thst friend still thinks of you on occasion. I doubt you will ever have contact again. This is what I know. Thank you for sharing.
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