I was yesterday met with this guy, it was a brief meeting not more than 2 minutes but it awakened a great deal of things
So he was this open, kind hearted person, but too open, if you have met some people like that you can understand perhaps...
To my experience, that level of openness is induced after something, an intense meditation retreat, an acid trip or other kind of drug/medicine, perhaps a death or accident that led to a creative opening.
Now my problem with that, and what has that activated, or perhaps, put my warning alarm on, was the not-integrated, not-contained energy. It is a wonderful state of being, it is!
But it feels like it lacks of containment to such a degree -
okay fast forward to my fear towards that - is the non-containment of sexual energy that has lured me in the past into sleeping with these people, and I consider myself to have been one of them too.
It is a disease of the west perhaps, I haven't encountered that much in the east. It is part of our wave of hurrying up, hurrying up to everything, including hurrying up to enlightenment !
So when that guy yesterday said how he likes my smile and we had a little talk, I picked on that and I wanted to move quickly, and he said how he's not going to bite me and none is after me here. It felt like a preaching, and despite he was all light and love, I felt good to be excusing myself and going.
To my experience, that level of openness is induced after something, an intense meditation retreat, an acid trip or other kind of drug/medicine, perhaps a death or accident that led to a creative opening.
Now my problem with that, and what has that activated, or perhaps, put my warning alarm on, was the not-integrated, not-contained energy. It is a wonderful state of being, it is!
But it feels like it lacks of containment to such a degree -
okay fast forward to my fear towards that - is the non-containment of sexual energy that has lured me in the past into sleeping with these people, and I consider myself to have been one of them too.
It is a disease of the west perhaps, I haven't encountered that much in the east. It is part of our wave of hurrying up, hurrying up to everything, including hurrying up to enlightenment !
So when that guy yesterday said how he likes my smile and we had a little talk, I picked on that and I wanted to move quickly, and he said how he's not going to bite me and none is after me here. It felt like a preaching, and despite he was all light and love, I felt good to be excusing myself and going.
