Do you identify with elphaba thropp from wicked movie and musical?

And her song defying gravity which is about acceptance of her true self and personal empowerment and overcoming societal expectations and norms. She was pronounced a wicked witch but in the movie and musical she is not wicked at all but deeply misunderstood and outcast. I love wicked at least the movie parts I have seen for free online. I want to watch the whole movie. It’s streaming on peacock and a couple of other streaming services. I know she did some evil things in the book wicked which is a lot darker than the musical or the movie from 2024. I see myself in elphaba thropp as feeling like an outsider in society. Part of being infp or infj personality type and having mental health disabilities. I see the world a different way from some of the people around me as full of wonder and I never really grew out of it. Although I have to learn to pack lightly if I want to see others parts of the country and the world that are not in an rv motorhome. I wonder if I will ever become independent and can live life on my own terms. That would be my version of defying gravity. Being a digital nomad working remotely and with a flexible schedule from my lab top and having online university to finish school as I travel the country and the world. I would only do the digital nomad thing part time because I have to pick up my prescriptions at a pharmacy unless I can get my prescriptions delivered to me. And I would finally not have to hear my parents make rude comments and insult my clothing choices for being too warmly dressed for their standards or too dressed up just to go for a walk around the neighborhood. It would be nice not have to hear it. I wonder if I will ever be able to keep track of my own bills, taxes, and insurance. I also wonder if I will ever be able to afford all of my own taxes, insurance, and bills so I could make all my own life choices. Also keep up with a household by cleaning, doing laundry, cooking and household shopping and maintenance. In addition, I would not feel restricted and could finally be myself freely. I would be able to drive again and take myself places. My parents would not have to be my medical and legal guardians due to incapacitation or incompetency. I would have my hobbies/interests/talents/passions/skillsets/aptitudes cultivated to an advanced level. I would have at least a part time career the equivalent of 25-30 hours per week. I would have my higher education bachelors and masters degrees. I would make a decent salary of $50,000-$100,000 annual salary. I would volunteer 2-3 hours each week to give back to the community. I would have close friends that I would see once or twice a week when I’m not traveling and come to my house or go to their house to talk, have tea or something and just spend time together. And I would keep in contact with my family and friends three times a week with text messages and emails. Once-twice a week there would be video calls or phone calls. My friends would preferably have a lot of flexibility in their careers and not be workaholics. Not working more than 35-40 hours per week I would have an rv motorhome for travel and live in a cob or adobe cottage for my permanent home location. I would also have a car for errands into town and short day trips. My rv would be for overnights, weekend, and week and month long trips. I could probably do two to three months on the road with all the comforts of home including a washer and dryer. I would need to be back by three months to pick up my prescriptions from the local pharmacy as I need my anti depressants and anti psychotic medication. Unless I could get them delivered to where I am. I could live in an rv full time but then there would be the issue of mailing things to me and needing an address for residency and domicile purposes. Of course with say escapees rv club they let you use their address for mailing and domicile purposes for full time rvers. Just my luck, I need sleep medication, anti depressants, anti anxiety and anti psychotic medication. I need my meds to keep mentally stable. If I had no need for picking up prescriptions at the pharmacy. I could full time ever for a few years and live in rv and tiny home resort communities fora few years as I explore the North America and other continents. I could drive an rv through central and South America. But I would need to have it transported by boat or plane to Europe, Asia, Africa and Oceania ( Australia and. New Zealand) that would cost a few thousand dollars each time and airfare is like $500-$1000 dollars for each airline ticket. And then there would be the costs of visas and passports. Unless you are making over $200, 000-$500,000+ a year, that can really put a dent in your wallet. Traveling can be very expensive even if you travel on the off season and save money on room/board/accommodations. And then there is the TSA precheck documentation which allows you to bypass most of the security checks in the airport and travel with less hassle. I don’t like to take off all my stuff and put it on conveyor belts including my boots. And be invasively scanned and going through metal. Detectors and x ray machines. It puts a damper on taking flights for travel. Also I need to learn to pack lightly because they only allow one suitcase. And one carry on per person on a flight I think. How could I pack tall Ugg boots bulging sweaters fleeces and coats. Etc in one suitcase? I struggled to pack lightly for staying in my aunts and uncles house for three days because I didn’t want to be caught unprepared by the weather in New England. And I put a bunch of hobby stuff in extra bags.