Uuuuhhh DUHhhhh what a day I had and how this time I've managed like a Pro, proud proud proud
I worked and finished the first application regarding funding an art project of mine fingers crossed everyone and then I trained and meditated in a nice park. I continued with my work on the computer in the library, fruits and an ice cream definitely gave me a necessary push 🐱 Then I literally run to the theatre class happening on the island twice a month and managed, 9 minutes late ugh
The light was going down and I was worried about the hike back up the hill but I had no choice but to go to another cafe and submit my application as it was almost finished but not done yet. It took me more than expected as it was showing a mistake that I couldn't fix and yet I did uuuuhhh woah so edgy , I'm always lecturing myself about how edgy I am and how not to be...
Long story short it was getting dark but god sent angel Tania, I hitchhiked basically but was super lucky as that's seriously NOT a busy road you guys! She drove me up to the point she could, then I had to continue walking onto the soil road and then the trail but it's 21.40 and I've fed the cats, cooked me some quick noodles with veggies soup and I'm going to get and eat in bed.
Managed everything with a somewhat high energy that didn't devour me :) feeling like a Pro 😁 ai I know though how I'm just a beginner... and I'll always be, in a sense!
My artist statement came out somewhat flowing, a bit lacking in coherence but god SO inspired that I just didn't dare to edit. One of those things you know guys.
And a few pics from today... I hope you too managed like a Pro something today...;)))
@robingoodfellow ya but my friend isn't messaging me and my heart aches. I'm here by myself and travelling by myself, having someone living so close to me for a week up the hill and then gone and never messaged ever since he arrived to his next destination. I'm thinking about painting, of how there's the smooth shading, chiaroscuro, and then there're the hard contrasts... And this been a hard contrast situation. I need to be less clingy to the past I guess. .. Well, my present is indeed wonderful but why the ache still ?
@Jokersswild my system consists of two edges, one is I'm circling the enemy, meaning I'm having an holistic approach, trying to address many fronts and not just one. Other edge is, I'm going for the bare minimum, the smallest bit I can do, one by one, like a baby. That's how I manage to keep up with consistency and get back on the trail.
I'm finding nowadays how the return, the come back, healing, bouncing back, is part of the journey. It's not a linear way forward, there're setbacks... And handling those, learning how to return back to the self , is vital.
