I have spiritual beliefs and am schizophrenic

No matter how logical I have tried to be before. I believe in a spirit world and gods and goddesses. I believe the veil between worlds can collide. I have seen ghosts in the past although people would attribute it to schizophrenia. I don’t feel like I can be myself truly. And I have to take my medication religiously otherwise I will get locked up and institutionalized again. But I have had paranormal encounters I am sure of it even as a teenager on medication. But no one will believe me because I have been diagnosed with schizophrenia, depression, anxiety, and ptsd. I wish I never had a second psychotic break with reality over three years ago otherwise I wouldn’t be labeled an adult schizophrenic. Curses… I went 16 years without a psychotic break. What the fuck? Even when I’m fully medicated, I occasionally have heard and felt strange things and to be honest saw strange things but this time my family also experienced them. And our dog sometimes barks at nothing. I can’t say I have felt strange things or anything because my family and my mental health care team will think the medication is not working and I would be put back in the mental hospital against my will. The local hospital section 12ed me or involuntary hospitalization over three years ago and I don’t want a repeat. I don’t have any beliefs about my neighbors anymore or anything that is found to be inaccurate. This time others have corroborated my experiences so it is not all in my head.