I Have Schizophrenia
Hi everyone. This is a really small group, and I'm not even sure if the members here are sure they have Schizophrenia. But I for one have been diagnosed with Paranoid Schizophrenia since age 16, and I would like to tell you that it's not what you think it is.
I'm not crazy. I don't talk to myself, and at the same time, I'm not an "edgelord". I don't live in a dark world with dark fantasies or whatever some 13 year olds like to make of it. I'm not a violent person. I'm not a recluse, I have many friends who love me and I love them.
And most of the time, I forget that I am even schizophrenic because I'm so used to it. It's well manageable with the meds I'm taking, and I do live a normal life.
Most of the time it's my thoughts, dialogue and the news repeating themselves in my head throughout the day, aloud. It's like a mind radio, If that makes any sense. When this so called radio gets a little too "energetic" at days, I have trouble understanding what others are saying because it gets too loud. Sometimes I get a little too paranoid about things, and doubt other people. My thoughts are scrambled and I jump from subject to subject.
Of course, there are bad days where I hear voices saying negative things. Sometimes I'm irritable and easily annoyed. But trust me there's nothing violent or I can't control. I really hope I'll live to see that stereotype die someday.
But all in all, I am a normal person. I'm not creepy, dark, crazy, or whatever some people make it out to be.
I'm not crazy. I don't talk to myself, and at the same time, I'm not an "edgelord". I don't live in a dark world with dark fantasies or whatever some 13 year olds like to make of it. I'm not a violent person. I'm not a recluse, I have many friends who love me and I love them.
And most of the time, I forget that I am even schizophrenic because I'm so used to it. It's well manageable with the meds I'm taking, and I do live a normal life.
Most of the time it's my thoughts, dialogue and the news repeating themselves in my head throughout the day, aloud. It's like a mind radio, If that makes any sense. When this so called radio gets a little too "energetic" at days, I have trouble understanding what others are saying because it gets too loud. Sometimes I get a little too paranoid about things, and doubt other people. My thoughts are scrambled and I jump from subject to subject.
Of course, there are bad days where I hear voices saying negative things. Sometimes I'm irritable and easily annoyed. But trust me there's nothing violent or I can't control. I really hope I'll live to see that stereotype die someday.
But all in all, I am a normal person. I'm not creepy, dark, crazy, or whatever some people make it out to be.
