Flying Monkeys part 2
I saw some more messages between my mom and my aunt. Apparently, my aunt got secretly pissed off at me when I told her she's loyal to my mom so I can't share anything with her as long as she's talking to her. She also shared to her all the conversations we recently had. I knew she's going to report to her! You really can't trust any of the flying monkeys with anything at all...I'm glad I didn't share anything. She asked my mom a couple of questions about what I've said in our conversation that bothered her but my mom didn't give a straight answer and quickly diverted the conversation by making more excuses, dismissing every word I said, and responded with baseless assumptions about me to make me look terrible. She successfully diverted her attention away from the question, and got fooled again. My mom really is a manipulative b*tch.
Anyway, my narcissistic mom kept telling her that I'm depressed and crazy, and kept pushing that I should see a psychiatrist to cure me because my brain's all confused, and stuff. She agreed completely with her, and told her they should do something before things get worse. She suggested to her to talk to a doctor on what the next steps are on how to deal with me. So, she talked to her family doctor and asked if he can look for a psychiatrist for me because I'm being difficult, causing trouble for the family, and because there's something wrong with my brain. Her doctor said he can't do anything unless he talks to me, and see if I do need help. That wasn't successful at all because she kept failing at communicating with me, and jokes on her, I've already seen therapists in the past and they've all said the same thing: I have an inner strength in terms of facing all the problems thrown at me, although they mentioned I do have depression/suicidal thoughts, and tend to dissociate under stress.
Now, I understand why she kept pushing it during their intervention with me...she really wants to prove that I'm crazy by seeing a psychiatrist to divert everyone's attention away from her...she's definitely projecting her mental illness at me. I admit I have chronic depression, but that doesn't mean I'm crazy. I know what I want, I have my reasons, and my own opinions on things and she's doing all this because she can't control me anymore. She's mixing 2 things together, and she can't diagnose me, she's not a doctor. I can't believe they've schemed this much behind my back just to prove something. And this isn't the first time my mom have schemed behind my back. She as the perpetrator got the whole family scheme against me plenty of times of times before together with my dad's support. I'm completely convinced now that I can't share anything with any of the family members anymore, and that includes the extended family...literally anyone my mom can manipulate. I'll be moving on with my life without these toxic people, and will do my best to heal from now on.
Anyway, my narcissistic mom kept telling her that I'm depressed and crazy, and kept pushing that I should see a psychiatrist to cure me because my brain's all confused, and stuff. She agreed completely with her, and told her they should do something before things get worse. She suggested to her to talk to a doctor on what the next steps are on how to deal with me. So, she talked to her family doctor and asked if he can look for a psychiatrist for me because I'm being difficult, causing trouble for the family, and because there's something wrong with my brain. Her doctor said he can't do anything unless he talks to me, and see if I do need help. That wasn't successful at all because she kept failing at communicating with me, and jokes on her, I've already seen therapists in the past and they've all said the same thing: I have an inner strength in terms of facing all the problems thrown at me, although they mentioned I do have depression/suicidal thoughts, and tend to dissociate under stress.
Now, I understand why she kept pushing it during their intervention with me...she really wants to prove that I'm crazy by seeing a psychiatrist to divert everyone's attention away from her...she's definitely projecting her mental illness at me. I admit I have chronic depression, but that doesn't mean I'm crazy. I know what I want, I have my reasons, and my own opinions on things and she's doing all this because she can't control me anymore. She's mixing 2 things together, and she can't diagnose me, she's not a doctor. I can't believe they've schemed this much behind my back just to prove something. And this isn't the first time my mom have schemed behind my back. She as the perpetrator got the whole family scheme against me plenty of times of times before together with my dad's support. I'm completely convinced now that I can't share anything with any of the family members anymore, and that includes the extended family...literally anyone my mom can manipulate. I'll be moving on with my life without these toxic people, and will do my best to heal from now on.
36-40, F
