does anyone else here live with disabilities

I got a few. Triple shoulder replacement, right arm so can't do anything, seizures ie can't drive and scared to get a 30000 bill if I go to hospital. Always on edge from anxiety, depression has it so I barely get my dog out a few times. New pills just came, I'm walking around like a drunk B4 I get drunk lol. MRI next week to see if that red spot on my brain is still there. I'm hoping it's cancer. No fucks given after that.