Everything. As a Human your supposed evolve and grow. Your past is supposed to be past. You past is not supposed define your future. The same problems just keep playing and over and over again no matter what you do to change things. Again, the past comes for visit. Haunting you. All the insecurities, hurt, pain rushing back and you wonder if its ever going to change or should just accept its never going to happen. Just give up hope and just keep living with all this hurt, pain and loneliness.