Hello, I'm sorry to hear that. I'm not a great advice giver or supporter, I'm usually the type to watch the situation but this time I just want to share what I think.

I can imagine how difficult and lonely this experience makes you feel. But I want you to know that you are not alone. I or anyone online can always be by your side and here to support you. We can work together to deal with these difficult situations you are experiencing, and I think getting professional help can be very helpful, because your health and happiness are very important. Give yourself time and believe that these difficult days will pass.